I Am Fine

Today, someone asked me, "How are you?"

I felt like crying, lamenting, and sharing. Telling them I can't tell why I feel this way. But I do. I struggle to sleep. I fear happiness. I don't laugh the way I cry anymore. But they won't understand our story, they won't realise how important each night becomes coz I see you there in the darkness of the corner of my room. I can't explain how a simple hug, an unlocked door, an argument, A criticism triggers me the way no person could. So I smile and say, "I am fine," and spend the next hour hearing their problems because I feel guilty of mine being unsolvable.

© Suranya