"I would never love someone like I love you."
I promised in full sincerity.
To the first I ever loved.
In letters, journals and poetry
Pouring my heart out in words
For that was the only way I knew
To shower love.
But what value would words have
To the deaf ears of materialism?
I was blamed for not being like
The rest of them.
(What does that even mean?)
And there I stood. Abandoned.
"I would never love someone like I love you."
I said to the second chance.
In emails, messages and raw emotion
Often disguised as crude jokes.
I was afraid to be vulnerable.
This time, there was no goodbye.
Ghosted by humans and memories of the past.
I was shattered.
"I would never love again..."
I looked at you and lied.
You weren't my first of anything.
Nor special like that.
Not one who would reassure,
"I am not like them."
How would I know?
I pushed you away because
I was scared of hurting myself;
So I hurt you instead.
"I would never love someone the way I love you."
I looked into the mirror, tired, sleepless eyes
Unhealthy habits and wary of the body
I promised myself this time.
And I intend to keep my vow.
© Suranya
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