Looking through your journals can be therapeutic. You understand what you did wrong and learnt from experience. I was going through my teenage journal and came across this one page where I admit to having a crush on someone when I was 13. I was a self-aware teen, hitting puberty and questioning my looks like any other. When I read what followed after I befriended him, today I would say he was aware of my feelings, exploited and manipulated me into believing he was a friend and made me do his work for him. I was a fool to think all that would get me into his good books and let him. It may look all naive and silly now, but I continued this one-way friendship for years till I could finally let it go and accept that he was not a decent human being. It was okay to stop being friends by choice. Why am I sharing this? Because most of my readers are teens who are going through their first crushes, puberty, heartbreak and everything else. It's important to know and realise that the portrayal of "abla nari?" who helps, sacrifices, is quiet when insulted and is kind to everyone despite being treated badly and made fun of being the good girl in a story is a myth fed to you. No, they won't come running when they realise how good you are as a human being. If someone cares for you, it will be through your bad days and worse phases. It will be with your flaws and shortcomings. You can't impress someone into liking you if they simply don't. Nobody comes before you. Nobody should be allowed to walk over your peace of mind.
© Suranya
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