If I were Brave

Has this thought ever crossed your mind 

How things would have been had you been mine?

All the entangled feelings that bind
Suffocate and slowly die 

Would have disappeared just by 

That look, when your eyes met mine.

When you asked what I wanted from life 

Why could I not say "For you to be mine"?

You call me the bravest, yet I was not brave enough.

How I wish there had been no ties, 

No worldly attachments, no duties implied, 

I wish I had broken the shackles 

That kept me away from your shrine. 

No wars would keep our love apart; 

That was all I wanted for us. 

But I was not brave enough.

 I know you would not feel the same. 

"Dreams are like the past", you once said, 

"Always perfect, always happy, how easily 

We unsee the unjust, unpleasant, unruly."

Perhaps your divine intervention was true 

For all I remember from the past 

Is the day I met you.

Not a war won, nor a throne, nor praises 

But your eyes are talking to me in verses unsaid.

Tell me, had I been brave, 

Would you have chosen me back 

Accepted me with all your grace? 

Would you have let your feelings rule 

Or rebuked my naivety; 

Be angry at my audacity? 

To feel the unspeakable, 

Choose you, My Princess. 

But I wasn't brave enough.

So when I ride at dawn today, 

Knowing in my heart, 

I will never see you again, 

Do I see your eyes teary? 

Do you long to hug me as I do thee? 

Curse this world and its rules. 

As I pick up my sword for you, un-mourned 

Bleed to death, whispering your name 

Upon whom I submit my soul, beyond this game.

© Suranya



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